Aftermath

So now that I've turned it down, I can write about it here.

So I was offered the 'job' of year level pastor by Winston a few days ago. Immediately I wanted to do it. Reality kicked in, telling me that I seriously have far too much on, but I still knew I could do it - probably not amazingly well, but good enough.

However, I was challenged. My own raging ambition cannot coexist alongside what God is building in me. I needed to humble myself, to deny myself this, to remind myself that although I may be good at what I do, it is entirely God's favour that has brought me along thus far.

I told him no. It was one of the harder things I've had to do recently. But I think it was a good first step in reining in my ambition and building my humility before God.

Yeah.